Introduction

I don't know why I didn't start a blog already but I guess it is never too late! Let me give you a little background on me.......

I am 35 years old and a single mother of five wonderful children. I have two boys and three girls. They are 14, 12, 6, 4, and 2 years old and YES! I take care of all of them, everyday, by myself with the help of God. I don't think I have ever been that type of female that depended on someone to take care of me or my family. I have always tried to do things on my own. Some say that is being prideful, to me that is just being realistic. After so many let downs by people who were suppose to be my friends or even family it just makes sense to just do it by myself. Now I am not saying that I won't ever need help from anyone, because we all know that this is not true. Everyone needs Somebody Sometimes! I will however try my best not to if I can help it.

When I was 14 years old my mother passed away and my life has not been the same ever since. I dropped out of high school only to go to Job Corps and get my GED and drivers license. While this is a big accomplishment I would have still rathered got my High School Diploma instead but I am going to be happy with what I have and move on. I never really had anyone growing up. My brother was locked up not too long after our mothers death for 10 years. I didn't find out I had a sister until I was 19 but even then we were not close in relationship so she was never around. I did keep in contact with her. My dad, well he is a different story altogether but lets just say he was not there either.

I walked around through my younger years looking for love that was not there. Everyone that I came into contact always found a way to disappoint me one way or the other. No one ever did what they said they would do. I hate that! Anyway none the less I got pregnant with my son first when I was 20 years old. I had gotten pregnant by a married man so thus the JOURNEY OF SINGLE MOTHERHOOD began! Still searching for that love I got pregnant again 3 years later with my first daughter in 1999 I was 23 years old.
I thought I was doing good with two children, no husband, and a job, and an apartment but then my life changed.

I moved around so much I can't remember everywhere that I have been. All I know is that I was still looking for that love that I was missing in my life. Needless to say 6 years later I get pregnant again back to back with another girl and boy. Ugh I was miserable because I knew I would struggle because being in my early 20's I still didn't get yet! I wish I had but I didn't. I go pregnant and had my last child in 2009. All this time, I still have no husband or a baby daddy that will hold up to their responsibility so guess who has to take care of these children, MEEEEEEEE!

I would like to end on a positive note. I am now a christian who is saved and lives for Christ. That was the love that I was missing in my life. Now that I have Christ in my life the troubles don't stop coming but I can deal with them so much easier because of the love of Christ that I have in my heart and in my life. This helps so much when raising childrne on your own! As much as I would love to continue talking  I will save some for another day because there is a screaming child that needs my attention. So until the next time....Be blessed!